Friday, 10 February 2017

The Ineffable Nature Of Reality


Nothing can be found

Because of time and because of change and because parts are made of parts –nothing can be found.
The body can’t be found.
The thoughts and emotions cannot be found.
No object anywhere can be found.
The one experiencing un-findable phenomena cannot be found!
There in the middle of a radiating sky is nobody and nothing experiencing somebody and something!

Awareness Remains

And yet awareness experiences events!
Unbelievable!!!! Absolutely amazingly unbelievable!
Thoughts arise but in no way can be pinned down.
Awareness apprehends thoughts but in no way can be pinned down!
And yet the presence of awareness remains!!!
No awareness is experiencing a no-body in an un-findable environment!

Subject and Object are of the Same Nature

Even empty space is an object if something is apprehending it!
An un-findable subject is looking at an un-findable object!!!
Ha! How ridiculous!!!!
The un-findable is looking at the un-findable – they are the same thing
The un-findable is looking at itself!
And it can’t be done away with!!!


The Appearance of Stuff Remains

The experience of stuff!
Where is the stuff?
Where is the one experiencing the stuff?
No where!!!
How marvelous!!!
And oh how exuberant, how abundant, how infinitely varied and exquisitely beautiful the multiplicity of The Un-findable stuff is!!!

Mistaken Identity

The subject – the awareness watching objects Is defined by the nature of the objects like a glass that becomes whatever color you place within it.
The truth about all objects is that they can’t be found and are empty of a fundamental truth and identity. They are truly beyond comprehension and description. That is their truth – they are ineffable.
In falsely imbuing ineffable objects with a comprehended or described value or meaning at the same time you imbue the ineffable awareness apprehending them with a value and meaning –
the awareness then gets caught up with this false value and meaning, it then gets caught up in false assumptions, false dualistic thoughts about external objects and a subject apprehending them. It continues to attempt to describe the indescribable.
And a false self is born – a mask
A case of mistaken identity is then the cause of a path into further loss of awareness and confusion.

The Happy Life

If however the awareness remains unfettered by conceptions – it then knows its true nature – empty and un-findable –
Awareness aware of awareness then knows all phenomena appearing before it to be of the same nature.
And in that pure awareness is a bliss, a radiance, a joy and a compassion. The whole ineffable show is naturally imbued with joy, compassion and wisdom.
These qualities are then clearly seen and experienced in all things.
Good and bad no longer exist – the potential to do harm no longer exists –
In such a state it begins to be possible to live a joyful, enchanted, noble and happy life.

How can others exist?

How can others exist?
It cannot be explained! It is fundamentally ineffable
An unfindable ineffable awareness is apprehending an unfindable ineffable environment
The awareness affects the unfolding of the environment and it is one with that environment.
The self awareness plays  a part in creating the environment and others, but those others and the environment are also creating the self that has awareness.
 And yet there are other awareness’s involved in the same process! There isn’t one supreme awareness and yet there is nothing separate from awareness!

What an absurd Situation!

We are all one but we are all separate, we exist but we don’t exist
Objects appear but can’t be found, awareness experiences but can’t be found
The environment and others are not separate from our awareness
In fact they reflect our level of comprehension
And yet we play a part in reflecting other’s awareness back at them!
What an absurd situation! Completely meaningless, completely valueless
And yet every moment is filled with sublime meaning and divine value!


Visions, Telepathy or Ghosts?

On many occasions It would seem that I have seen and spoken to people who are already dead. I will share three such occasions with you here.  On one such occasion I was sitting in a bar in England when I got talking to the man next to me. After about one hour of simple conversation I began to have thoughts about his father. I told him that his father had died a year ago, that the man now lived on his own in a dark cold house, that he was drinking too much, and that he had lung cancer but had not told anybody.  As I told him this information the man glared at me in shock and then began to cry. It was all true and we were as shocked as each other that I had discovered this information.  Was this just crazy coincidence? Had I somehow deduced this from his facial expressions and behavior?

Another time I was with a girlfriend when her Grandmother appeared to me in a vision, she was a  little old lady and the left side of her face was limp. Before the vision I knew absolutely nothing about the grandmother. She told me a few things about my girlfriend, how she had collected birds and kept them in cages in her mother’s house, how she had been in love with an older man but eventually been rejected. She told me to tell the girl that she loved her very much and that she was not to worry, she knew that the girl was sad because she had not had the chance to speak to her beloved grandmother before she died. I told the girl all of what had appeared to me and she was shocked at the amount of information I gave her about her grandmother who had had a stroke and then soon after died about a year before. She seemed very relieved and joyful at the news I gave her. 

On another occasion I was in a café in Thailand when I kept seeing a figure at the bar near the toilet. When I turned to look at the figure it would disappear. Intrigued by this I returned to the café every day for a few weeks and made good friends with the owner and staff. Eventually I could see the figure enough to see that it was a man, dressed in a t-shirt, shorts and baseball cap, he looked sad and kept pointing to his right arm. I eventually bucked up the courage to tell the owner what I was seeing. He subsequently told me that a westerner matching the description I gave had gone into the toilet a year before and injected heroin into his arm, he had then walked out of the toilet fell over and died on the floor of the café from a Brain Hemorrhage. Apparently a lot of drug addicts gravitate to that part of Thailand and over the years there have been a few deaths from overdoses.

So what is happening here? Are the dead trying to communicate with me? Do tragic events leave a mark on the fabric of space and time? Or is it telepathy? I believe that I am picking up thoughts and feelings from the people who are involved. I sat for an hour with the man at the bar, the things I told him were very serious and obviously causing him a lot of grief, I believe he told me these things telepathically. With my ex girlfriend it was the same, her grandmother, the stroke and her death were obviously the most traumatic things in her mind, I somehow picked up on these things. And with the cafe, the owner and the staff had all witnessed the tourists death, was I picking up on their fears and hidden thoughts? What do you think? Let me know and leave a comment.

Tuesday, 7 February 2017

Nervous Breakdowns are A Good Thing


What is a nervous breakdown?


A  nervous breakdown is a disorder caused mainly by stress, depression or anxiety. It is applied as a diagnosis to an individual who previously has had no mental health problems but who is experiencing anxiety to the point were they can no longer function on a day to day basis.

Nervous breakdowns are commonly caused by overwork, burnout, sleep deprivation or similar excess levels of stress. A nervous breakdown is usually only temporary and most individuals can overcome them through rest, relaxation and by removing excess stress from their lives. 

Thoughts and Emotions


Here are some ideas that might help you overcome a nervous breakdown or at least see it in a more positive light:-

Within our body we are generating thoughts and emotions, thoughts about the senses of the body, thoughts that are memories of the past, thoughts that are about the future. The thoughts, hormones and senses together form emotions. These emotions then trigger more thoughts which themselves affect the endocrine system and secretion of more hormones, emotions and thoughts, so there is an endless babble of thought, an unremitting feedback loop of thinking! A continuous communication between nervous system, endocrine system and our thoughts. Now add a stressful job to that, or stress out your nervous system through sleep deprivation or addiction or just worry constantly about some responsibility you may have:- and -bang! = nervous breakdown.

Behind this bundle of psycho-biological chatter and stress is a pure awareness, a silent watcher who is watching everything. Try to find it! Try to separate yourself from your thoughts and emotions, instead of getting caught up in them, don’t invest them with so much importance.

Pure Awareness


When we 'hear' a thought in our heads or sense a bodily sensation we may think that that is our self. Thoughts emotions and sensations are happening to the self but they are not the self. The self cannot be found in space or time, all that can be found is an endless amount of parts and processes. However there certainly appears to be awareness, or a sense of ‘I’ behind the thoughts and feelings. 

This awareness is the closest thing to a real you, the pure awareness behind the thoughts, the feelings, the emotions and indeed the body. It is this aspect of ourselves that we need to get to know deeply if we want to be happy. It is this pure awareness that is shrouded by an ocean of unceasing thoughts, feelings and emotions, these thoughts feelings or emotions can be positive or negative.

The pure awareness gets lost in the thoughts and starts to believe them. If you get locked onto certain thoughts they get stronger. If these thoughts are negative or based in worry or if they are just relentless in nature they can drain your energy and completely overwhelm and incapacitate you. The thoughts, worries and stress can become so much that you lose touch with your real self. 

The real self is a silent, still, spacious awareness, this awareness does not use up energy, in fact it is the source of your psychological energy and well being. Thoughts on the other hand are fleeting and use up energy.

What you need to learn to do is ignore the thoughts and return to pure awareness. This pure awareness is silence, silent watching, pure looking and clear seeing. We need to learn how to remain in this state of pure being. We need to recognize what thoughts and emotions really are and not let them play a big part in our lives. If we can remain in a state of pure being it replenishes our energies. Remaining with silent pure awareness is like recharging your batteries.


What Are You?


Put very simply we are bodily senses, thoughts, emotions and pure awareness. It is possible to have access to this pure awareness no matter what thoughts and stress is arising in your life. Pure awareness and the ability to remain with it is the very essence of happiness. 

Pure silent awareness is your real nature and when it is fully revealed in you, you will see directly that it is the source of the whole of your existence. However to remain with this awareness for even a second without distraction  is incredibly difficult and if you want to experience lasting happiness and overcome a nervous breakdown you must learn to remain in this state more and more. 

Pure awareness is like the sun and the thoughts and emotions are like the rays of the sun shooting out into space. To become healthy and balanced you must shift your identity from the rays of light to the sun itself.

When you do get a second of remaining with this pure awareness you get a tremendous energy and an incredible feeling of well-being, of love and of peace. A few seconds of this pure awareness and you witness yourself chuckle gently at the bubbling energy at your heart and you will become fearless and absolutely confident and brimming with joy. Most so called spiritual practices are simply different ways of coming into contact with this awareness.

The Mask Of The Ego


So how do we develop the ability to remain with this state of Pure Awareness? We have to quiet the mind through meditation and silently watch our thoughts and emotions. We have to find the one behind the thoughts and the body. The main thing that stops us from experiencing our true selves is conceptualizing, if we are very angry or very jealous we just can’t stop thinking, our thoughts and emotions are like a storm that we cannot control, we become absolutely one with our thoughts.

When we are hurt and jealous we are one with the experience and we can’t let go of it. Grasping and attachment to thoughts and emotions is the life blood of the ego. The ego is the false self that arises in dependence on a set of recurring habitual thought patterns. Getting stuck in ego - constantly thinking, worrying, planning, stressing is the cause of most mental health problems.

Someone who is utterly caught up with the drama of their own lives, with pride for themselves, hatred for their enemies, desire and attachment for their friends and family and jealousy and sorrow at loss and rejection can be called an ego maniac. They have never experienced their true pure awareness. They are lost in their thoughts and emotions. They are completely caught up in thinking and feeling. 

Can you imagine how difficult it would be for someone like this to be able to let go of thinking and return to pure awareness? Can you imagine how shocking it would be to them to realize that the ego doesn’t actually exist? That it is just inner chatter that can be ignored? What would be left of them? If you took away the strong emotions and turbulent thoughts what would you be left with? 

This is what happens when people have nervous breakdowns. Their mask cracks and falls off, the maelstrom of thoughts and emotions fully overwhelm the individual and they can no longer deal with them. Because they are so used to the movement and noise of the ego they cannot recognize the pure awareness of simply being present in the moment. 


Nervous Breakdowns Are A Sign Of Spiritual Growth


Nervous breakdowns are the sign of the beginning of true spiritual growth; they are like the forming of the cocoon of a butterfly. A deeper part of the mind is forced to let go of the endless thoughts and emotions and just stop. Leaving the individual incapacitated whilst they are forced to learn how to be present in the moment.

We therefore have to stop identifying ourselves with our thoughts and emotions. We have to take off our masks and stop playing the part, stop going along with the drama of our lives and return to who we are. We must have a nervous breakdown, absolutely letting go of everything and everyone so that we may recognize our true nature.

In order to let go of the drama we need to see it for what it really is, once we know the truth about reality we no longer invest energy into the thoughts and emotions.

To experience the pure awareness is so blissful. The problem is that even if you get a second of pure awareness you might mistake it for something else. I mean compared to the movies we watch and the music we listen to the pure awareness doesn’t even register to the senses. But if you can recognize it and learn to remain with it, every aspect of your life will begin to heal and eventually become abundant with peace, health, wealth and joy. 



So there are two difficulties: first is recognizing the pure awareness in the first place and the second is remaining with it. Nervous breakdowns are a good thing because they force you to do this. They force you to start to grow spiritually.

Monday, 6 February 2017

Don't Fit In.



There is one message that I get from the masters and it’s: ‘Don’t fit in’

‘Fitting in’ is the big problem. Fitting in starts as soon as you’re born and it starts with your family.  Let’s imagine your family are Christian fundamentalists, or devout Muslims, Buddhists or racists, or football supporters, or members of a cult, if this is the case, from day one, you will be brainwashed into their creed.
This ‘programming’ is what sets your brain of on the tracks of right and wrong; it’s what creates your character, identity and ego. It is this false self, a self dependent on a set of bias principles which can only ultimately provide you with a fraction of the picture. We are born with the big picture already present in our pure awareness but little by little we are shut of from it and a wall of emotional trauma and emotional prejudice is built around our Buddha nature, our pure awareness. And if you believe in past lives we will also bring all of our past life trauma, prejudice and fixed perspective with us into our new lives.


To remain in the moment, not denying thoughts and emotions, not grasping after them but simply allowing them to dissolve into the spaciousness of our awareness, if we do that, we have stopped fitting in. To do that we must let go of all of our ideas about who we are and what is good and bad. We must let go and open our pure awareness into the space of the moment. If we can do this, little bit by little bit expanding into and accepting space, we can gradually begin to see the big picture. An effortless, breathtaking growth occurs as we intuitively infuse our awareness with empty space, recognizing all things to be empty. And in that vibrant emptiness is wisdom, compassion and bliss.


Let go of your false identity, let go of the crutches that hold you together. Drop your masks, one by one until you reveal the heart of wisdom that is your true self.  Maybe we wear the mask of the monk, or the football supporter, or the Christian, or the rocker, or the punk, or the nerd, or the free spirit, or the new age traveller, or the philanthropist, or the hard man, or the soldier, or the pot head, or the office worker, or the manager, or the husband, or wife, or the man, or the woman. It’s all masks, it’s all fleeting, it’s all a game. I found a blissful humour when I learned to let go of all of my masks and rest in the pure clarity of the moment, the trick, I suppose, is to keep the masks off.
Rest in natural great peace this exhausted mind,
Beaten helpless by karma and neurotic thoughts
Like the relentless fury of the pounding waves
In the infinite ocean of samsara.
Rest in natural great peace.



— Nyoshul Khen Rinpoche
“Look past your thoughts, so you may drink the pure nectar of This Moment.”



― Rumi

“There is
a time to live
and a time to die
but never to reject the moment.”
― Lao Tzu


“Meditation is the dissolution of thoughts in Eternal awareness or Pure consciousness without objectification, knowing without thinking, merging finitude in infinity.”

― Voltaire

Materialism and Spirituality


I often wonder what my life would be like had I made different choices. I believe that if I had made different choices as a teenager I would probably be a lot different. I would certainly have a ‘normal’ job, be obsessed with money, probably have a wife and kids and more likely than not be stuck in my home town.

As it turned out I did none of these things and now I live on the other side of the planet in relative freedom, peace and joy. Maybe had I taken the other route I would be more financially secure? I’m not sure. At the age of 16 I decided that wisdom was more important than money. I believed that remaining true to yourself in the pursuit of wisdom was the meaning to life. I still believe this. Because I stuck firmly to my pursuit of wisdom and freedom I missed a lot of opportunities that would have made me richer and more established in the material world.


Some people get this, others find it abhorrent. If you say to some people that wisdom and inner peace are more important than money they will ridicule you and look at you like you were the worst kind of moron. Oddly the pursuit of wisdom and inner peace invariably leads you, eventually, to financial stability anyway. It just means you will have a long period of time experiencing what is known as the ‘Dark night of the soul’. It is inevitable that as you learn about the true nature of reality you will hit an impasse of overwhelming meaninglessness. This is a period of complete loss of meaning in life. In this dark journey you will fall into despair and terror, basically dismantling yourself, your actions, your beliefs and your mind in the pursuit of the core of your being and the meaning to life. Many times it will seem absolutely that there is no real meaning.

For me to accumulate wealth and possessions seems absurd. This is because from a very early age I have been obsessed with the question of death. Death renders all wealth pointless. I couldn’t and still can’t see the point in spending all of my time accumulating wealth when at the end it will have meant nothing. 1 minute before I die it will be as if my whole life had meant nothing, none of my possessions will help me and I won’t be able to take them with me.

For me what seemed and still seems important is to face death with dignity and inner peace. Also if there is anything after death the only thing we will have to help us is our wisdom.  The only thing we really have is our state of mind. So in a sense wisdom is more material, more real than money or possessions, at least it remains with us.

So what do I mean by wisdom? The best way to describe wisdom is to describe someone who embodies wisdom. I live in Thailand, out in the countryside, there are a lot of little old Thai people who are very wise and very compassionate. Let’s imagine one of these little old Thais, Turn your minds eye to one of the many old Thai Buddhist mothers who work the countryside and who are full of wisdom. Maybe this woman isn’t very clever in the normal accepted way. If you asked her general knowledge questions about geography, history or science she might smile at you and chuckle, absolutely clueless on any of these subjects.  But what this lady has is deep inner peace and wisdom on how to live in a balanced way that keeps her peaceful and happy.


Let’s imagine she lives in a simple little house right in the middle of nature surrounded by paddy fields, jungle, rivers and the warm Thai weather, she has very little money, she has only a few basic dishes that she eats, she has a small family to look after and a handful of jobs to do each day. On top of this simple lifestyle she practices meditation throughout the day and holds to a set of principles amongst others such as ‘do unto others’, ‘don’t gossip or slander’ and ‘treat others with compassion’. She employs this mental discipline in everything she does, putting others before herself and always acting out of peace and compassion. With this simple life and simple mind training for the majority of the day she feels deep peace, relaxation and joy in her heart and her face is never far away from a smile and a laugh.


If you took somebody from the corporate modern world, suffering with depression or anxiety and ordered them to live with the old lady for a year and treat her as a precious teacher, copying her behavior and taking her advice, after one year that person would be healed and be in a state of inner balance and peace. This is the power of wisdom and compassion. In outer display it may seem boring and really mundane, but the subtle art of living as expressed by the truly wise, like our old Thai lady, brings true wealth and happiness.


“Wisdom, meditation and compassion lead you to a direct realization and experience of being connected to everything, including death. At first this is terrifying and this is why most people turn away from the path of wisdom.”


People who have this wisdom, this matured state of being always face death with dignity and fearlessness. They embrace death like a child embracing its mother after a long separation, for their lifestyle and wisdom has brought them to a deep fearlessness and a profound mystical understanding of the universe and the nature of mind.



To be connected to everything is to be also connected to death. Wisdom, meditation and compassion lead you to a direct realization and experience of being connected to everything, including death. At first this is terrifying and this is why most people turn away from the path of wisdom. But what needs to be understood is that with perseverance one can come to a deep understanding of the meaning of death and one can face it with dignity and peace. At that point all status, possessions, wealth and competition are revealed for the absurd empty pursuits that they are. Truly wise people laugh gently at the continuous and relentless struggle for material gain and feel compassion for the people chasing their tales trying to find it.

Contentment and Clear Seeing

Contentment and Clear Seeing



“Contentment is the greatest treasure.” Lao Tzu


The problem with contentment is that it is really difficult to obtain! Yet without contentment you can never obtain inner peace. If you are not content with what you have in the moment you will forever be chasing the future, dreaming of better and better things. Contentment is akin to gratitude. To be content you must appreciate what you have and be grateful. This is so difficult. You may say yes I am content, but in your heart you are secretly wishing you were somewhere else with better circumstances. The real connection with the universe that comes whilst remaining in pure awareness and the joy it brings cannot be achieved unless you are genuinely content.


The way we feel in our heart affects how our reality will manifest. If in our hearts we are not content then that non-contentment will manifest in our outer reality as frustration and boredom. The only way to be truly content is to experience the joy that silent presence brings. If you can remain with pure awareness then you will feel fantastically happy. In this state you can let go of all outer conditions and truly be content. Then that contentment and inner happiness will manifest in your outer reality as abundance, beauty and opportunity.


Learning to become silent will bring clear seeing, clear seeing will bring presence and presence will bring contentment.  If something awe inspiring happens, like the eruption of a volcano or a great human achievement like landing on the moon one may become speechless and present. In this state you may gasp with indrawn breath, that gap of silence is a higher state of consciousness. In that gap is the pure awareness that brings joy, as Shakespeare said Silence is the perfect herald of joy,’


As this happens one can suddenly see that all of the inner speech and chatter is separate from the true self. In silent awareness you can see that there are many habitual thoughts going on, noisy and distracting. You can see that imagination is a force that flows out of silent awareness and if unchecked habitual patterns of imagining can form and crystalize into identities separate from ones true self. This inner mental chatter and imagining is stopping you from seeing the world clearly. To find the peace of silence and clear seeing is to find a peace beyond all description.

“The Self loves silence.”
Lao Tzu

Compared to the vast expanse that silence brings in one’s mind the ego and all its chatter is exposed as nothing more than a foolish rabble of selfish babbling. One may see that there isn’t just one ego but many little ego’s all chattering away distracting one and projecting ideas onto reality. When you experience your true self you can see that the many different egos are imposters. Many thoughts fight for attention: Thoughts about what you should do, who you are, what you are doing now, what others should do, what others are thinking; thoughts about possessions, health, status, sex and money. Thoughts that make you feel superior and thoughts that run you down. All of these thoughts disappear in the presence of silence.


When you become calm and rest in natural pure awareness you will see that it feels more natural to remain silent and listen rather than talk. This silent state of mind understands that the different dictates of the ego have no power over it. The inner silence becomes a true vibrant presence and a new state of being. If the ego can melt into silence then one can begin to see clearly.


If you begin to see clearly the flow of mental energy changes; instead of all of your mental energy flowing out of yourself in the form of thoughts and emotions, impressions from reality start to flow into you. Seeing is like breathing or eating. When you look with silent presence the sensations of the outer world start to flow into you. Sounds, smells, colours, and tactile feelings feed the imagination. You become aware of the world instead of lost in the many thoughts that the ego is made up of.


The more present you become, the more the real self can arise. This self is balanced, whole and wise. This ‘higher self’ can see deeply into the world and gain energy from it. Without silent presence, sensations from the world are superficial. When you become unified into the ‘higher self’ you become an explorer of a glorious new world.

“When the mind is silent, it enters a world which is far beyond the mind.”Upanishads




So with contentment you can relax into silence this silence can then bring clear seeing. To use your eyes to consciously see the world without thinking about the world you start to get a supreme joy from quietly looking at things. The true self becomes an impartial viewer of all of the intricacies of life. Joy and energy arise from simply observing a flower or a cloud, or the details of a painting or just the moments that make up a simple activity like making a cup of tea or waiting for the bus.


With this depth of vision the inner imagination can transform from a chattering irrational ego into a force of creative energy. The ego is nothing more than a starved and irrational imagination. You must feed the imagination by seeing clearly through remaining silent and present.


'From the eyesight proceeds another eyesight,'
 Walt Whitman


Clear seeing brings a powerful imagination and the genius of creativity. A painter studies his world in silence and is aware of the movement of bodies and the landscape. A good poet can use the seemingly mundane moments that make up the random events of life as material for a poem. This is why if someone has developed their imagination through clear seeing they can really enjoy a poem. The poem can literally transport them in their imagination. The inner eye of the developed imagination is the ‘Third Eye’ that various spiritual schools refer to.



“With an eye made quiet by the power of harmony, and the deep power of joy, we see into the life of things”
William Wordsworth


It is these simple joys that bring contentment. If you can become silent and present with the moment you can become content. Contentment brings more silence, clearer seeing and more presence which in turn brings contentment.

The Reality of Myth and the Myth of Reality


There is reality and there is myth. Myths are a set of symbols we apply to reality. Everything we grasp at is a myth. We may say: 'over there is a mountain', but that is only because we have already agreed, abstractly, where 'over there' is and what a mountain is. A mountain isn’t a mountain, it’s an infinite display of un-calculable, ever changing, multi-faceted happenings. So too with anything, if we describe something as one thing we leave out an infinite amount of other things that it is also. We agree to label things as a certain way for social convention, but it is a myth, a fabrication, indeed we pullout our view of the world based upon whatever myth we have been indoctrinated into. Whether that is the: ‘god created the universe’ myth, or the scientific: ‘the universe is an out of control accident’ myth.  



Aside from our mythological labeling of reality there is reality itself. The reality of being. As you sit or stand or lay down, here now, you are being. If you can let go and just be you you will see that reality is a set of vibrations coming into your body, you will also see that yourself, the thing you call I, is simply a set of surfaces that these vibrations are hitting. The air and temperature touch your skin, as does the floor, light touches your eyes, and sound touches your ears. You can feel inside of your body and you can feel a kind of barrier between this psychological outline of vibrations and the outside reality. But stop a minute, does not your liver feel the same as the moon? Your kidneys are working away in the same way a tree or a river is working away. When you truly start to meditate you can look around inside the space of your body. Your body is as much it’s outside reality as it is its inside. You are gravity, you are the sky, the landscape and the whole environment, if I took all of that away you wouldn’t exist. You are a human body environment field; you are a field of vibrations with a point of attention located around a body.



If you learn to let go, dissolve the boundaries of inside and out you will come to the alarming conclusion that you really are everything. You will see that behind the normal everyday state of awareness, there is a deeper level of awareness that is one with the whole universe.  You will actually see that the whole universe is manifesting out of this deeper level of being, or you could call it being/space. You are the whole universe twisted around in on itself and looking at itself through an aperture called the body.

With this experience, an experience you could call an expansion of consciousness, or transcendental consciousness, there is bliss. For some reason to feel this deep level of being is to experience inner peace, happiness, joy and fearlessness.

So what is it that is keeping you from this experience? It is the set of myths that you have applied to reality that keep you attached to certain things, keep the form of your body and 'reality' in a set perspective. The myth that you are a solid separate entity, a bag of skin containing an ‘I’ that is independent from everything else keeps you locked into that perspective. Myths then, to a certain degree, are literally creating the universe we experience.

The myth that the world was flat made the world flat in the minds of the people; it affected how they felt and perceived themselves. Now if I give you a new myth, a greater more expansive myth of the universe will it actually change the universe? Will it change how you experience the universe, how it appears to you? If I really knock it into you from birth, then yes it will.

In a state of conscious expansion you also realize that time doesn’t function in a linear domino like fashion. Things are not arising out from the past, causes from the past are not creating the now, the now is arising out of now, and moment by moment the whole universe is unfolding into being. You see that the past is actually arising out of the now, trailing of from the now, and the future is pouring into the now. In this way you create the past from the now. You are as separate from your past actions as is a sculpture from a block of marble. That is why Karma is creative and dynamic, Karma only works in relation to the myth that you believe in. That is why you can transcend karma. Karma only really works if you believe in the myth that we are created from the past. To remain in the moment is to realize that karma is a pretty picture you are painting in the sky before you, a slowly dissolving and impermanent picture at that!



Things are not nouns, all things are verbs. Everything is moving, even a chair is being, it is vibrating, everything is being and doing, things aren't solid permanent nouns, and everything is jiggling together, arising and unfolding out of and into the now.

So then, myths are like filters that we apply over our senses, thoughts and feelings. They are the story we apply to the pulsating experience of now. Depending on what we want to achieve we have to have the corresponding myth. If you want to make money you have to be fully immersed in the myth that money is important and real. If you want to get a fancy university degree you have to be immersed in the myth that education and certification from educational establishments are real and worth something.  Let’s say you want to get a degree in art, you have to learn all of the little myths that the establishment has agreed are true about what makes art art and then you have to regurgitate them, correctly, to convince the establishment that you are in agreement with their myth about art. Then they will give you a bit of paper that says: “Yes he has learnt the myths, the story of art and he agrees it is so.”

The truth is that, other than just being in the happening of the moment everything else is game, a game of labeling reality with sets of symbols. Applying stories to reality. The point here is that real reality is the only thing you can experience in the now without labeling or applying a myth to it. To just be in the moment, letting go and dissolving into that, recognizing that thoughts, feelings and emotions are just parts of the same whole, going on in spite of your conception of yourself and your myths.

You realize that it’s all empty, there is no real set of rules, rewards or punishments. It’s just a game, a game that you pull into being depending on your level of immersion into myth. You see that reality is just now, is being. And if there wasn't the corresponding realization that you are everything and that in being everything you can experience bliss and inner peace in the moment, if there wasn't that, you might get depressed and kill yourself. But actually in letting go and transcending the human games we play, you not only achieve happiness in the moment but you position yourself to be a master of play, a master of joyous creation.  A master of myth, and there is endless creative joy involved in that.

In other words if you take the different games we play seriously it’s no fun. If you realize, on the other hand, that the greater part of yourself is beyond these games, indeed is the whole ground of being, then you can really have amazing fun, startling fun,  playing along.